This sinking feeling. Wonder how many of us have actually thought we would be where/what we are today... "Smooth rides make for boring stories, a little calamity, that's worth talking about". Which is why Grey's is still the most captivating show on earth!

Lately i just feel like i am stuck in some kind of vortex.

Late celebration for the birthday boy. Our beloved doggie restaurant shut its doors unexpectedly last week, in ill timing for brady's 2nd year on Sunday. So a simple affair would have to suffice.

work work work. little time for my little ones. A cake churned out in 40mins. A feat i might add.

my blue-eyed boy in his blue bow tie,

Now L was missing a while at home but Brady and I didn't feel any difference. 'Ol Daddy & 'Ol Momma fed, walked & bathed us just as well. But to see L come through the gate was just wonderful! I saw she had 2 bags with her and instantly guessed she had bought us stuff. L always reminds us how lucky we are because of her *ahem* generosity, whether it be our cooked mutton meals, our expensive shampoos, or the toys she orders from the web. She tells us how much of a responsibility we are but i'd like to think we make life more meaningful. Admit it, you wish you had a furry friend to waste away all your money, time & energy on... because having worked a 50-hour week, all you want to do when you come home is to continue being a sweet slave to creatures a fifth of your size. uh-huh uh-huh.

So apparently she went to this place really far away but still kept us in her mind. We got Coach© collars, when she could've bought a bag instead. She loves us! So much we get to wear dead cow hide around our necks... but only on very special occasions. In the meantime I get to put on my awesome pair of doggles as i tan in the summer sun. This is the life...!

Now if i had 3 million US dollars, i would plonk that money into a plot along the ocean. If i could wake up to such a dramatic sight everyday and fall asleep to the tune of the rolling tides, i wouldn't mind being swallowed by the tsunami that might hit the house.

The roadtrip was completely unforgettable, replete with views that only the hands of God could've shaped.

Let's walk this over, on this trip i discovered:

• cars can park at 45° slopes without tumbling
• black guys lurve asian women
  
• A&F only hires young hot people
  
• my uncle is really quite gay
• dreams really do come true, albeit in a themepark
  
• it is easy to shoplift in the states
• i can drive lefty
• it is true that i am a midget

Taking from one of the Sufi poets,Okay i really don't understand what the guru he is talking about but it just sounds extremely profound.
I am refreshed, energized & happy.

Nothing like going trigger-happy when i'm down. I'm terrible with words, pictures make more sense. Still, i'm comforted by the simplicity of Max, his delight and joy at the little things. I look at him and wonder how he can be so darn happy, that stupid smile plastered over his snout. A bowl of home-cooked mess, a stick for fetch, the dangling of the leash...

in fact i could treat him like shit & he'd just come back for more, his folded ears as a gesture of seeking forgiveness. I am so beneath my dog.

I just did the colorgenics test and it was fuckin' accurate. I'm basically an insecure-temperamental-abused-frivolous-perfectionist with a dash of control-freakiness! now hang on in your corner while i ponder on why no one is able to put up with me for long okay...

Here's what mine had to say (if anyone even gives a shit):

At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. Your are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.

You are a true extrovert, frivolous and outgoing. You need to feel in control of any situation. If matters are not proceeding according to plan you tend to get extremely irritable and perhaps become difficult to live with.

You feel truly deprived - not getting your fair share, but you have accepted the fact that that is the way things are at this time and that it is prudent to let matters slide and not hit your head against the wall -so conform and agree for a while. Accept the situation - nothing can last forever.

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

GO TRY IT!