This Is Shitty

2008-10-19T02:36:00.002+08:00

This sinking feeling. Wonder how many of us have actually thought we would be where/what we are today... "Smooth rides make for boring stories, a little calamity, that's worth talking about". Which is why Grey's is still the most captivating show on earth!

Lately i just feel like i am stuck in some kind of vortex.

2008-08-01T22:18:00.000+08:00

Late celebration for the birthday boy. Our beloved doggie restaurant shut its doors unexpectedly last week, in ill timing for brady's 2nd year on Sunday. So a simple affair would have to suffice.

work work work. little time for my little ones. A cake churned out in 40mins. A feat i might add.

my blue-eyed boy in his blue bow tie,

2008-07-05T00:10:00.002+08:00

Now L was missing a while at home but Brady and I didn't feel any difference. 'Ol Daddy & 'Ol Momma fed, walked & bathed us just as well. But to see L come through the gate was just wonderful! I saw she had 2 bags with her and instantly guessed she had bought us stuff. L always reminds us how lucky we are because of her *ahem* generosity, whether it be our cooked mutton meals, our expensive shampoos, or the toys she orders from the web. She tells us how much of a responsibility we are but i'd like to think we make life more meaningful. Admit it, you wish you had a furry friend to waste away all your money, time & energy on... because having worked a 50-hour week, all you want to do when you come home is to continue being a sweet slave to creatures a fifth of your size. uh-huh uh-huh.

So apparently she went to this place really far away but still kept us in her mind. We got Coach© collars, when she could've bought a bag instead. She loves us! So much we get to wear dead cow hide around our necks... but only on very special occasions. In the meantime I get to put on my awesome pair of doggles as i tan in the summer sun. This is the life...!

2008-06-22T23:03:00.003+08:00

Now if i had 3 million US dollars, i would plonk that money into a plot along the ocean. If i could wake up to such a dramatic sight everyday and fall asleep to the tune of the rolling tides, i wouldn't mind being swallowed by the tsunami that might hit the house.

The roadtrip was completely unforgettable, replete with views that only the hands of God could've shaped.

Let's walk this over, on this trip i discovered:

cars can park at 45° slopes without tumbling
black guys lurve asian women
A&F only hires young hot people
my uncle is really quite gay
dreams really do come true, albeit in a themepark
it is easy to shoplift in the states
i can drive lefty
it is true that i am a midget

Taking from one of the Sufi poets,Okay i really don't understand what the guru he is talking about but it just sounds extremely profound.
I am refreshed, energized & happy.

2008-05-05T18:28:00.003+08:00

Nothing like going trigger-happy when i'm down. I'm terrible with words, pictures make more sense. Still, i'm comforted by the simplicity of Max, his delight and joy at the little things. I look at him and wonder how he can be so darn happy, that stupid smile plastered over his snout. A bowl of home-cooked mess, a stick for fetch, the dangling of the leash...

in fact i could treat him like shit & he'd just come back for more, his folded ears as a gesture of seeking forgiveness. I am so beneath my dog.

2008-04-30T16:55:00.002+08:00

I just did the colorgenics test and it was fuckin' accurate. I'm basically an insecure-temperamental-abused-frivolous-perfectionist with a dash of control-freakiness! now hang on in your corner while i ponder on why no one is able to put up with me for long okay...

Here's what mine had to say (if anyone even gives a shit):

At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. Your are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.

You are a true extrovert, frivolous and outgoing. You need to feel in control of any situation. If matters are not proceeding according to plan you tend to get extremely irritable and perhaps become difficult to live with.

You feel truly deprived - not getting your fair share, but you have accepted the fact that that is the way things are at this time and that it is prudent to let matters slide and not hit your head against the wall -so conform and agree for a while. Accept the situation - nothing can last forever.

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

GO TRY IT!

2008-03-26T23:16:00.004+08:00

and the fact that we're mighty old. how time flies... xoxo.

2008-03-10T03:00:00.006+08:00

What should have been a weekend with friends turned out to be all for naught with unexpected illness catching up on everyone. what a bummer. but there's always tomorrow.

So i cocooned myself with Chang beer and cuttlefish snacks watching documentaries. i think it's the ease of lying on my bed in grubby PJs viewing snippets off the trusty mac that nudges me to online video websites. Granted, i could get out to get me some good 'ol dvds but where's the fun in that? Granted also, that i'm not legally doing anything criminal (yet) since i 'stream' and not 'download' videos.

After i had enough of burning my eye sockets, i exercised my index finger with the cameras in my room... just so i'd have pictures to prove my existence.

And now, back to Paradise Lost. Double bummer.

2008-01-30T22:42:00.000+08:00

So i accompanied Auntie S and her pup to Sentosa Beach. Funny, Duke don't take to the salty sea too well either, so we basically were forced into paddling for our dear lives. I'm so sexy and popular that he wanted me all to himself and even tried to chomp down on a miniature schnauzer for coming too close. The other dog's owner also praised me for being such a brain when i showed off my 'fetching' skills! Da, i'm just near pawfection.

In not so far off future, i will display here all my crowd-pleasing tricks. Yes yes i will.

2007-12-22T22:46:00.000+08:00

Now what had L been up to lately?
She came home with strange smells clinging on every inch. Betrayal i had bayed, "she smells of other dogs and creatures unknown!"

I saw her dash out with barely a pat on my head, with no walks, no hugs, no bye-byes. She sneaked away without tossing me my breakfast! I was oh so sad...

But L told me she has been going around taking photos because she must make full use of her "monster baby". That woman calls everything she owns her baby! Anyway she went to the SPCA to shoot pictures for the dogs there. There are buddies out there waiting for a home... L said she met a lady who was surrendering her 4 mth old mongrel because she couldn't afford to feed the dog & she wasn't allowed to license it. The daughter was bawling as she sayang-ed her dog for the last time. L's friend who works at the shelter says that the dog would probably be snuffed out. It is very upsetting... we give our unconditional love and loyalty for as long as we can & at the slightest inconvenience, we get chucked out. L says many people are unprepared for the long term financial & physical commitments for a pet. I am crossing my paws & hope she is prepared.
L has also sold off her lens to buy a flash. It is the only way when one is a poor student she says. But the flash has been fruitful because she can take indoor shots of us easily & that means more treats for me!!! Now, I am a smartypants & what do smartypants do? Why, sit still and look sharp when payment is rendered.

'Tis bein' thee jolly holidaes, Christmas tidings from Brady, L & me...

2007-12-13T01:21:00.000+08:00

How come Auntie K only loves Brady????? *Runs to corner and cries silently...Is it because i'm getting punished for humping one of Auntie S' puppies?????? I'm sorryyy, i just can't help myself. It's to make up for my really tiny pee-pee.

2007-12-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hello unfurry ones. L brought me to the park today. She managed to finish her book so she took some time out to 'catch some fresh air'. And by that she means grabbing a plastic bag full of air outside. Which she'd then release back in our home so it would smell nice. Hey, it's free..!

I'm so happy she chose me instead of Brady! These days, L tries to walk us separately. She thinks that we behave better on our own instead of acting like a pack of street bullies when we're together. I must admit, it has been much more enjoyable for me because we go for longer walks and I get to say hi to the neighbourhood dogs. With that stick up his anal hole, Brady usually looks for a fight when he spots a canine a mile away.. I don't know why he's so mean but my guess is he's just jealous of my swooning charm and popularity. Damn that boy, he's in the way of my getting lucky with the ladies!

After our walkies, we usually get fed. My all-time favourite moment of the day, and of my life in general... MEAL time. Today I got mutton, veg and rice. Yummy! Actually I get that everyday. L makes us sit before our dish, and before we get the release command, we can only stare and drool. Yup, she's nice like that.

2007-11-18T01:33:00.000+08:00

many many words later...

sent it off.

That was the last essay of the semester, a culmination of a series of bad bad writing.

I'm quite disappointed with my results for frikin' cybercrime. Was hoping to save an s/u and my dismal c.a.p.

Headed out to the park today, armed with my new set of lens. 50-200mm VR. It's not too bad... for it's price.

I somehow find photography therapeutic. Visuals just embody so much more than words.

Dragged Brady along to be my model for the evening.

Fudge

2007-11-12T18:38:00.000+08:00

Meet "Fudge", a friend's golden retriever. He's slightly lumpy but it's due to being on meds. Poor boy has convulsions every now and then. Other than an uncontainable urge to hump humans in sight, he's an awfully sweet fella. Doesn't hurt that he's quite a looker too.

One more week till school closes and study week commences. 1 presentation, 1 test, 1 dreadful essay. Now hasn't this semester just flown by??? The malaise of everyday existence my friend...

2007-10-24T01:29:00.000+08:00

Over the weekend, L brought us back to this cafe which allow canines to dine with their slaves. She put really macho-looking leather jackets on Brady and myself. Let me tell you, them jackets turned out to be made from cheapo vinyl fabric and completely made us look ridiculous. They were positively gayyyy....! Oh woe, i had to scuttle far far away from Brady just in case other dogs thought we might be a couple. I'm throwing away all the matching outfits and getting my wardrobe revamped. *throws hissy fit*

But back to my evening. Turns out it was to celebrate my birthday! L says i'm two now and in dog age, it represents the prime of my life. Well whatever, the only good thing at the restaurant was that the hoomans decided to order a muttloaf for Brady and me to share. How pathetic though?! They get to chow on main courses like pork knuckle and rosemary chicken while we had to share! This is sooooo not MY birthday celebration...

To make up for it though, the guilty family brought us to West Coast Park for a post-dinner languid stroll. But, but, but, they did it again! They stuffed their faces with Macs ice-cream & didn't even lend me a lick.

We finally got home and cut MY cake, which was fortunately all mineeee...! I also got a pig's ear chew on my actual birthday, and a collar/leash set. Oh and the grand ol' man gave me an angpao. L says she's keepin' it. That bitch.

2007-10-14T03:51:00.000+08:00

TGIF! What's a good way to spend a Friday?
Well, meeting the Giggly Girls of course.
It was like snorting coke, riding on ecstasy, then downing a couple of Valiums... laughing and crying and squirming about. Right, i've never tried drugs, but then you've never met the GGs.

oh and the truth is that i am blunt. as blunt as a pencil that can't write at all. me needs lessons on basic manners.

something else hits me. it appears slightly inconvenient to lug around a 600g monster to dinners. it makes me feel like i'm making a wedding out of birthdays. or a voyeur. or stupid. meep.Here's the link to the whole frikin' album.

2007-10-05T03:40:00.000+08:00

Unfortunately Max couldn't come with us to Sentosa last weekend.
Okay. I'd admit, i left him at home on purpose.
I feel bad... but i have to qualify that he is a difficult dog to take care of in public.
Plus he hates to swim!

He was actually whining in the most pathetic way possible when we said goodbye, and then he tried to jump as high as he could, as if willing himself to leap over the gate. poorthing.

I'm happy to report that Brady was on his best behaviour although he looked quite the little lost lamb without his big brother. Anyway i applied for the damn Sentosa card... again (wtf was i thinking?!), so i'd be trying to make my money count.

My favourite shot of the day...

....... and it's not even taken by me (goes to show everyone should go buy a dslr!)

2007-09-26T11:06:00.000+08:00

I had thought that no one cared about us. Recently, L's mommy has been lugging tons of boxes home. Now if those were puke brown cartons, i wouldn't bother (well, brady would prob have a swell time chewing) but but but, my super powerful hyper sensitive nose smelled that those boxes contained something baked! And then i see L stuffing her face with blocks of wood every now and then (i'm not allowed in the dining so i can only see not smell when she's there). But my great mind gathered that the wood must not be wood but food... how silly me! Now when max is enlightened, max turns frantic. Like Buddha jumping over the wall, i jump all over the floor. L is stupid and says we can't eat because I will end up with pimples. I don't like L.

Then we went to the dogrun last weekend and a nice auntie gave out boxes which had mini blocks of wood. Oh happiness! L says it's specially for us 4-leggeds and she says it has to do with the moon. I didn't know hoomans ate moons! It hangs so tiny when i see it, i wonder how everyone can get a share? So we got to eat the wood/moons and it was yummy!

But before we could swallow whole, L said we must take a picture. For food, max will do anything, so pose we had to...

2007-09-02T04:05:00.000+08:00

Pseudo Studio Photoshoot
A fumbling photographer, 2 uncooperative fidos and an unassuming dslr over 2 days...

2007-08-19T18:57:00.000+08:00

Brady had a quiet 1st birthday on 27th July.

While we couldn't pull out all the stops this time (unlike my big bash last year), L tried to do her best under strange circumstances. It turned out to be a small but intimate affair for the family. Brady tells me he's not fond of strangers anyway.

L made a Mango cheesecake which was yummy for both dogs and humans. I tasted it and thought it was better than my cake!

Here you can see him acting all shy in front of the camera and enjoying his cake, ahhh what an evening...

Two days later, he was sterilised. Consider it his belated present i guess. *sniggers*

2007-07-21T09:38:00.000+08:00

My grandmother passed away yesterday.

Anyone who knows me well knows that she lived with us, raising my brother and me from young. At times, she could be difficult and unyielding, driving my parents up the wall with her antics. But I know that she always meant well, insisting on doing the chores even with a bad leg. I just collected the last pile of laundry she washed from the machine to hang dry.

Still, she's had a good long life... 80 years. That's a blessing.

My Ah Kong is devastated though.

Human nature makes it hard to let go.

Popo

我祝愿您在一个更好的地方, 得到上帝的保佑。

不要再抱怨你的生活了哦!

谢谢你从我 baby 直到这天这么照顾我。

永远爱你, 永远记住你...

2007-07-18T03:57:00.000+08:00

Age creeps up on all of us.

As jokingly put in hokkien terms, "old already, no one wants already"...

Freckles was running about the neighbourhood aimlessly. We thought she was abandoned, cruelly treated and callously thrown out, having outlived her usefulness.

"Oh the tenant must've opened the gate."
"Ya, I know [that she's smelly & in a horrible state]."
"She's got a lot of allergies la."

No doubt the woman was heavily pregnant, but what a sight for your son to behold.

She was lost for merely a night. To think we felt it better she be put to sleep.

Anyhow, we washed her up twice, dug out the grime in her ears, cleaned away the gunk in her eyes and treated her skin as best as we could.

Post-grooming happiness!

2007-07-16T02:02:00.000+08:00

2007-06-15T02:11:00.000+08:00

Other than a bit of temping and tuition, i've had quite a bit of free time to practise my photography. Not to be this big-headed narcassist but I do believe i've improved in capturing dogs in print. Or at least i'm wiser to the environment, lighting and modes that could be optimised during a shoot a.k.a. resulting in better pictures.

Delaying my entrance into the fast-paced, blood-sucking, soul-selling world known as WORK.

Focus is inaccurate but my fav. shot of max.

That's my boy's spirit, right there!

Brady's big now. He's looking more like a fox

& less like a chi with each passing day.

Twain's so gorgeous. A far cry from the mess I picked up. :)

Need. Money. Telephoto. Lens.

2007-05-26T03:20:00.000+08:00

I couldn't ask for more on the trip to Taiwan with my 2 very awesome buds. My tummy aches from gagging at the stupidity of our actions and thoughts. Every trip contains a mixture of sweet and sour moments, which is even more apt as we savoured Taipei through its food. If i had to summarise our experience into little mochi balls, the flavours would read:

pathetic mandarin conversations
snacking like there's no tomorrow
the look of our room at that love motel
the look of our room at the subsequent cool hotel
the maze that is the Taipei Main Station, damn you
the wonderful breezy evening weather
pedigree dogs everywhere, even on the scooters
food. mister donut, bubble tea, fried chicken, dumplings
convenient convenience stores
criminal activities
friendly Taiwanese
dubious Taiwanese
soft porn

Hehehehehe.
Yes much fun. It really doesn't matter where one goes, it's really the company.

2007-05-08T04:46:00.000+08:00

Great day of fun with smatterings of "uglyuglyugly" thrown into the air.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the coolest Godma on earth!
I know i went clicker-crazy, no thanks to my beloved D40.
Only a fraction of shots made the cut cos i'm still getting used to the DSLR functions, but a fruitful day no less.

Done with Exams! Though that spells the possible end of my education journey. :(
Or not. Guess we'd see...

In the meantime, it's time for me to kick back my heels and hang up my mind.

Kim's Bday

<-- For full album, click that damn pic.

2007-04-05T19:33:00.000+08:00

Chibuddy 2nd Anniversary Celebration

[East Coast Park 31/03/07]

2007-03-05T01:03:00.000+08:00

I have an announcement to make.

I have a girlfriend! *embarrassed giggle*

Meet Camry, a female jrt...

We met at a JRM (Jack Russell Mania) gathering at Sentosa & it was love at first sight. I chased her, she chased me, and then we made up.

Unfortunately she's quite the bitch. She's domineering, fierce & tried to hump me back after i did the deed on her. As the pictures suggest, she wears the pants in this relationship. Hurhurhur. But don't we look oh-so-compatible? In case any of you DOHs (dirty old humans) were wondering, nope we can't have babies. Both of us are sterilised.

It was a hell'a fun day!

2007-02-13T16:43:00.000+08:00

Ruff!

I'm back! The swinging stud muffin stud dog stud about town stud.

L and myself (and now Brady...) have fallen into the routine of heading to the Dog Run on weekends. These are the days I await with eager beaverness as I get to meet up with strange dogs for a round of socialising. Now I must declare that we used to go to the West Coast Dogrun where there are plenty of grass and a fiddlestick of Fidos running all about; they smellin my anal sac me humpin their backs etc. ya know the usual macho stuff.

But in recent times, we have moved our joint to the Bishan Dogrun where I trudge with less enthusiasm. You see, here there are fiddlesticks of grass and plenty of Fidos instead... small Fidos to be exact. I'm speaking of Chihuahuas. Alas, the curse of the adoption of my step brother (a forced one mind you) follows me wherever I go... such that my social circle has now been reduced(literally?figuratively?) to a sallow bunch of that Mexican breed. The reason is a painful one L reminds me, for Brady got punched in a fight and is now under Big Daddy's orders to mingle with only dogs his size.

It doesn't help that the human family coos at all the wawas evertime they go, like it's some stuffed toy exhibit. Pls tell me I so don't belong here...

Fotunately, here's evidence that I still roll with the big bois...

^Street cred. no doubt.

2007-01-31T02:17:00.000+08:00

It was a pleasant surprise to find the breeder's sms in my inbox. She asked about Brady and mentioned how she really misses him. That's a sweet thing to hear. But it was also the first time i got to know he actually has a sister. I always assumed that he came from a batch of 4 boys. Guess they wanted to keep the girl for themselves (for obvious reasons). So anyway she kindly sent me an mms:

Brady's mom & sis

Funny how his mom is a beautiful chocolate brown and the daughter is black, but Brady is fawn, and his other brother whom I saw was also of a different color. There's certainly the resemblance between him and the girl, so hopefully they'd end up with a nice thick coat like their momma.

One for the road...

2007-01-01T06:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

The past year has seen some changes in my life and perhaps in me. I finally got my big fat wish... I got Max! And now i've added Brady to the picture. I really can't be more thankful for their presence everyday. Nothing quite beats it having them run up to me everytime I come home as if they've not seen me for ages. Truth be told, the lessons my dogs have taught me have been priceless. The times they fell ill, eliminated in all the wrong places and vomitted over my sheets have been hard tests of patience. While I still flare up (a fine e.g. being when Brady chewed up 4 pairs of good footwear & stole Char Tao Kueh off the dining table), I'd like to think i'm learning to deal with things better. :)

Looking ahead I hope to be less judgemental having come a looong way from the bitchy mindless posts of yonder years (well not that long). And to be personally more driven though not necessarily in terms of material pursuits. There's really more genuine issues in life than frivolous accomplishments.

Right, before this post descends into the irredeemable pits of sentimentality and romantic notions, I shall stop myself. Have a good one folks!

PS: Happy bacteria-free licks from the boys.

2006-12-19T05:00:00.000+08:00

WE WON!!!

Thanks to everyone who so kindly voted... Brady's picture managed to hit top 4. And L got the very lame x'mas outfit. As promised, here's Brady acting all pensive and reflexive in his new santa cloak and hat:

Thanks to Aunty H, I got a santa hat too! I know I look positively ridiculous, but that's the extend I go to just to please my alpha bitch.

I hope that everyone gets a really blessed Christmas! It's my very first holidays, so I pray to God that ham will fall into my mouth. *Happy licks*

2006-12-11T19:46:00.000+08:00

PLEASE VOTE FOR BRADY!

Go to Gggrrr.com and register as a member
Validate your account and log in to the forum
Head to the contest thread and vote for:
Photo 17 - submitted by somnobulant

Oooh I'd love and cherish all who aids me in my quest to win that cute xmas outfit for Brad/Max!

Speaking of Christmas... it's that time of the year again... loads of presents, trees, lights and food. Enjoyment in the company of friends and family. Can't get no sweeter than that!
But how about doing something for charity this Christmas to make it extra special?

Make a dog at Animal Lovers League happy this Holiday Season... Sponsor a jolly good 'ol meal for one, two or more darlings by making a purchase from US Doggie Bakery.
CLICK to find out more.

There will be no presents for Brady and Max this year because they're so much luckier than all the dogs in our shelters and on our streets, so it's better the money gets put to better use.

2006-11-14T02:59:00.000+08:00

Some pictures of Brady and I from the Canon S80 kindly lent by Uncle B :

L says she needs to find some cold hard cash to buy a good camey. I asked her how much, since I saved some ang pao money from my birthday. She said some 1.5k cash for a dSLR or $800 for a prosumer. WHAT?! I doubt I have that much on paw. Besides, who pays for a black piece of plastic that costs more than Brady and I?!

Whoops! L apologises for having her oogly face pop up like that on you. Concentrate on the cute bundle of joy instead wuncha'

1st Barkday

2006-10-26T19:11:00.000+08:00

Wohoho... i'm officially a pup no more. That's the big ONE-0 celebrations hitting me in my muzzle! L wildly threw me a barkday party and got her friends to come down to show some support but really who cares about 'em humans... when there was food!!! & some canine guests! Thinking back, there was this buzz about the place and i knew somethin' wasn't quite right when L kept slaving away in the kitchen the week before (without showing what came out of the magic box). But then everyone knows how easy it is to surprise a dog so it wasn't that tough a secret.

Gawd! The day totally blew me away! I got to see some 'ol pals and make cuddly with some new buds... hehehe. No bitches in sight though, it was the boys night in! We had cake! My cake! Though may thou add that strawberry is wayyy too gay for the handsome me oozing masculinity outta every paw. Besides food, I received some cool prezzies. Thanks Aunties!

Now it would have been jeeeust purrfect if someone had thrown in some kegs of beer.

Ooops i almost forgot to add... I've got a new brother. He's a long-coat chihuahua -- tiny in size but packs big pawnches! Name's Brady & he's got a tiny pee-pee. Muahahaha.

2006-10-15T22:50:00.000+08:00

It's Maximilian's 1st birthday just around the corner. I'm extending an invitation to all my friends to just come along for a simple get-together if you're free. Yep! Max's birthday is more important than my 21st... so do come if you can.

No need for any presents but if you insist, please don't get him any dog foodstuff cos he's got allergies. The time is really just for formality sake so you can drop by anytime, although cake-cutting would depend on a decent number of people at any one period.

We welcome all doggies & humans, but do note that Max is slightly psychotic & easily excitable. There may/may not be any real food for humans so don't expect to stuff your faces here.

Hope to see some of you!

Comforting

2006-09-29T08:48:00.000+08:00

Here's a sad one:

Max has always been a dog plagued with skin problems. From the time he left the petfarm, he's been to 3 different vets for dermatitis. Hotspots, rashes, cuts, what-nots. Weeks back, he developed a really bad bout of bumps on his back. The vet remarked that it appeared like hives & was probably an acute reaction. To what?! Dammit. Well that's the beauty of allergies, you have to find out what one is allergic to. Anyway the bumps were controlled with medication but kept coming back. It reached horrendous stage 3 weeks ago. During the interim period, he was heavily on drugs & slept most of his time away... it was a pretty sad sight. The perils of being a dog owner i guess.

For now, no more meds for the poor fella. I assume it was definitely the diet. It always is. Those damn chicken necks with fuckin hormones pumped into them in the light of kfc chicks too fat they break their own legs. Max's on an elimination diet at present. Raw lamb cubes alone. That's all he gets. I'm glad to report that his skin has really improved, but one thing; those stuff are pricey! It's $9/kg & he eats 5kg of meat a month... that means a whopping 45 buckeroos per month... So now i'm askin', if anyone has better lobang, pls let me know. Oh & no wetmarketing...

Because of all the stress of these events, plus the fact that i have yet to finish any damn lit book AND still have 2 essays due the week school reopens, I've oddly taken to baking -- Baking & waiting for that elusive prosumer cam. So if you're not wholly interested in domestic affairs click that x.

Comfort food :

Chocolate Fudge Cupcakes
tried frosting with peanut butter but disaster!

Biscotti for dogs
though humans can eat it too!mostly, i don't really eat the stuff i bake. hmm...

God Bless St. Francis

2006-09-22T02:03:00.000+08:00

It's finally here!
The reason why i became a catholic*

*i believe God has a sense of humour... relac ya...

Bakin

2006-09-04T03:30:00.000+08:00

Guess who came to visit?

Twain, my man!

According to L who last saw him, his fur has not grown one bit! But I can tell you... that belly has definitely filled out alright *sniggers* He's a real spoilt lil shit now, lucky dude. Pity... timid as ever in my presence. I dunno, there's something awe-inspiring about me I reckon *furrows eyebrows* Must be my muscles & jumpiness that pisses my fellow canines off. Here's the scene worked out : I chase Twain, Twain runs off. Humans throw toy, I run for it, beat Twain. Twain gets sympathy-toy, goes corner to chew. I run for every human & every toy.

It was fun though. Well, more fun for me than him. Human 'Ol daddy missed the boy so much he kept belly-rubbin Twain. Teeheehee.

Today I got lucky! We were doing the usual walkey round the neighbourhood when midway, we got invited into Milo's home. Now Milo's a JRT like myself (only twice my size) & his Japanese Mama thinks we are brothers because Milo always allows me to bully him (note to self : stop humping males). She also happens to be the nicest lady ever and today she fed me some nice beef steak off the family's dinner & presented L with a toy for me! I love Milo, but I love Milo's Mama more! I shall propose to L a new route... walk out of gate, head to Milo's, go home. Isn't that a most brilliant plan!!!

In other news, L has taken up baking. Baking for ME to be exact. Now I am known to have super-sensitive skin which breaks out like a pimply schoolgirl's face all the damn time. So ingredients include NO WHEAT, SUGAR, SALT, PRESERVATIVES etc. She's tried honey oat biscuits, liver biscuits, tail chasers & banana muffins. It's not the easiest thing; slaving in the kitchen. I try to help too... I help to finish off the yummy delights! I'm a real garbage bin I admit. Isn't that great? I'd never complain about your cooking! Say you love me...

2006-08-13T05:34:00.000+08:00

I despise the start of school! boohoohoo...

2006-08-13T04:53:00.000+08:00

L has finally added me as a "member" of this damn blog. I now officially have an account with Blogger, although i'm pretty sure i don't meet the min. 13 yrs age requirement. Blogskin's also been changed to reflect the presence of my sparkling personality!

All this has been done so L doesn't have to highlight my entries in fugly blue. The woman has mild OCD & thinks such discrepancies the end of the world. Ah! She's nuts.

In other news, it seems my weight has levelled to a nice 5kg. The family seems happy about this... but they don't understand how tiring it is to have to blast those kids who come along & point at me going "chihuahua! chihuahua!". Thank you very much but I am NOT a blardy Chi! My booming chest & peaked muzzle clearly defines me as a jack. It doesn't help that L dresses me up in those silly clothing to fulfil her deep-seated desire for a CHH. I'd rather play fetch anytime...

I say Shit to the shirts!

2006-07-22T01:20:00.000+08:00

L picked up this fluffy dirty dog. Well, actually i did. I barked to let her know of a possible intruder outside our home on Sunday and she brought it in instead. Now, i've gotta share the human's attention with it... it's like i no longer exist!!! *chews toy in mouth* Hellooooo... who's the puppy here?! *goes to corner to sulk*

I overheard them talking and it's a shittttt-zoo??? It was really ugly and messed up when we first saw it & he seemed like he was starved for days... that's so sad... i can't imagine going without food for even a day.. foooood.. mmm... oops, sidetracked. Anyway he's being fattened up with 3 meals a day of yummy canned food while i have to settle for raw meaty bones. Lemme do a poll. Delicious venison & avocado canned food VS tasteless raw chicken necks... which wld u sink ur incisors into? Some JUSTICE people!!!

Anyway he's going off to another home soon since his owner hasn't come forth. We're all still waiting though... unless ur a heartless bastard who threw ur own furkid out! In that case, Twain is better off being pampered by someone else. Oh yeah... L named him after the famous American writer. She has always regretted calling me Max because she says it's so common and provincial. I like my name. Then again, call me whatever u want as long as u gimme food.

2006-06-22T01:43:00.000+08:00

Cupcakes anyone?

Came across this Singapore-based venture selling cupcakes! Normally i really don't care much for food. But i really love their website and the preeeetty displays of their products. I'm such a sucker for design and photography i know. Anyway do check it out. They don't have a physical shop yet so there's a min. online order of $30 + $10 for delivery. *sulks*. I wanna try 'em but that's too much confectionary to handle on my own...

They look too good to eat! Don't ya think it'll make for such a great gift, these muffins? ahhhhh....

------------> CCUP

2006-06-12T03:01:00.000+08:00

I have a sexy ass!
I know you wanna slap it... yes you... the pervert.

Recently i've developed the habit of planting my huge rear on my human counterparts, whether to sit or to take a rest. it's just that i'm kind of a clean-freak and i decree that my precioooouuuusss bum is never to touch anything remotely unkind... especially wet grass, soil or the cold hard floor. The humans are way too tempting as nice warm cushions, what with their embarassing amount of flab and heat. And as everyone may tell, that's a nice sweet buttock that should be protected, loved & comforted.... ahhh yes.

Apparently my balls have descended (see that little bulge, yes you pervert) & L wants to cut them off!!! Sobs. Fortunately she'd have to convince her parents first... I shall now go write up some posters & riot against such cruelty! "Stand for my Studhood" "MAXimum Balls"

L: Sterilisation prevents unwanted pups & have been proven to prevent the onset of prostrate cancers in dogs. As evil and 'unnatural' as it may seem, neutering rids the stud of sexual frustration at not having a bitch to mate with... & reduces his desire to run away during mating season! Now all i need is to convince my parents that it's better for him & that no one wants to breed with Max anyway. Or should i leave him to be 'natural'? sighhh...

2006-05-22T02:59:00.000+08:00

Now there's this place they call the Dogrun... a whole load of human companions bring their dogs to this enclosed field where we're allowed to run off leash and play and mingle with our fellow furry friends. It's always a fun time although some mutts can get pretty rough. We do what the humans do in any social setting... we hang out and chill, play games, chit-chat on the lattest mutt gossip & delight ourselves with endless butt-sniffin'!!! ok, humans don't smell each other's asses... not literally at least. My problem though is that sometimes i get into a bad habit of trying to mount a sweet bitch. yes, my balls ain't out yet & i'm barely into adolescence... but it's just all that testosterone pumpin' in MAMA! Anyway, L says it's awfully rude behaviour & i get a slap on my thigh once i attempt such valiant indiscrepancies, which is a real turn-off if u get what i mean... sigh.

here's Terry, the Sheltie and Happy, the Jap Spitz. Incidentally, Skits is a mix of both. Gosh, they sure are pretty breeds... even these studs here look kinda' char bo...

Celebrated Kaiwen's 21st last weekend. Damn, i wanna pack home the smoked salmon... Thanks for spendin so much effort on a great party!

I love my fellow beasts! As funny, beautiful & full of shit as ever. Cheers babes!

Work sucks. I wanna quit, but i can't. I'm gonna recommend they reduce my job to 9-5 with a 4-day workweek. I protest the trauma and unproductive menial tasks they subject me to! It's so depressing I've lost all sense of humour.

Anyway, realised I'm working with a Samsui woman...

Disclaimer: HAHA, seems funny? 98% of the time it's not fun. we have to be insane to maintain our sanity...

2006-05-08T21:57:00.000+08:00

Haven't had much free time cos of work which just seriously exhausts all my energy. Fuck. i dunno how people do it... work. There is absolutely zero quality of life there. Still, always need to make time for my favourite hunnybuns!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM!
It was some retro party. Looked exactly like mambo night. Was a lil under the weather but it was a nice get-together with the gigglies and boy! was kim surprised. As seen from the picture, our gal was nothing short of being the ultimate light of the party! Hope you like the gifts babe, but i can tell ur sis is fast on becoming spongebob's new best fren. enjoy a rawkin' 21st!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIMIN!
I just love spending time with these lovely ladies. We can not be in contact for a while and then when u throw us together, we just pick up where we left off and then go on to have the most fabulous time ever. Even though we were supposed to be celebrating her bday, i could tell we were grossly deprived of shopping more than anything else. After-work dinner dates? Raise ur hands!! i know u want to-oo-oo. Babe, may all your wishes come true & i know you'd acheive all ur ambitions... :)

In other news: I'm so depressed 'cos i don't get to play with Max so often. My dad actually taught him a new trick. Put a kibble on each paw & make him wait before commanding him to eat it up. So cool! Yet i feel like shit. SIGH.

2006-05-01T19:38:00.000+08:00

Over the weekend, L spent a great deal of time with me. It was because she finished her exams (i dun really know what it is, but it makes her curse more & drink coffee). It was great! But i sense some guilt on her part... like she's off to conquer the world & that will leave little time for me... hmm.

Anyway i went over to Ash's place on sat to visit my beloved poochie friends! Skits was supposed to go for training and L said she needed to pick up some tips to control me. Control? She says that I keep pulling on the leash & it's driving her insane. But... but... i am only trying to display my strength! To show everyone that i am a growing boy! L is so stupid. Still she was nice enough to do up something to remember the day by...

*Click to enlarge it (for all u tech-idiots)...

I am starting work almost immediately & I guess I'd see Max less often. SOBS.

They say that dogs can "see things" the human eye can't. This Labour Day, I brought Max to stay overnight at my aunt's place. We took a room and shared a bed. Now, i've let him sleep over in my bedroom before, but this place was different. Anyway, halfway through the night, he woke me up with his sudden barking. Although a little disoriented, I could tell that he was directing his barks towards the door area(or foot of the bed). I tried to look but didn't see anything, yet he continued his aggression and actually started retreating, moving closer to me. I told him to shutup and held him, but he only turned to growling and boy! he was trembling and his fur was on ends! It was like he was trying to tell me that there was an "unwelcomed guest" in the room cos he kept looking towards the corner. SHIT. I was freaked out and began to pray hard. After about what seemed like eternity, Max finally calmed down and laid down to sleep. So tell me, was it because he was unfamilar with the new environment that caused his anxiety or that he saw something supernatural? I don't really wanna know but NO MORE sharing a room alone with dogs for a while...

2006-04-22T02:01:00.000+08:00

This is a post about my ears. I know that they are really huge... but i like to think that they have presence. L says that my pricked ears is a genetic defect that is caused by indiscriminate breeding of jacks, leading to the drop in breed standards. Kao! What rubbish is this about bad genes?! I have normal genes... 2 eyes, 1 muzzle, 4 legs. Can bark, can jump, can pang sai... what more does she want?! hmpf. i believe her bitterness stems from the awkward development of my ears over time.

Really people... i just want to try out different looks. yes i'm vain like that. it is in me to be a non-conformist. L just doesn't understand. Besides, it's not as if she has great genes herself. All she has are stupid Levi's jeans... tsktsktsk.

But seriously i'm starting to think i bear some semblance to something else...

HOW???

2006-04-10T01:43:00.000+08:00

Yes that is me. I happen to think it is a very well-posed shot. L (& if u think it stands for Liza, it does not. It really means Loser... will elaborate later) sometimes calls me Cleopatra. She says it's my kohl-lined eyes and the dandy way i laze around... like a Queen. I think she's just jealous i have prettier eyes. But then i also get called Mickey Mouse, Dumbass, Shithead, Sexy lil thang etc. If I remember accurately, my name is Maximillian, but more often than not I get a spate of vulgarities hurled in my face. Really! This is definitely going to affect my emotional well-being and cause me years of therapy. Sheesh!

Speaking of emotional status... i've noticed that L is quite a sadist. Whenever i try to shower her lavishly with attention, dispensing my precious licks, she ends up all mad and tells me off (something about pipples or mimbles). Then when i'm happily tucked in bed dreaming of bones, she comes along at 2 am to say hi. Look, I mean I know she paid good money for me, but I'm not a whore! (Ok i can be... with the right incentives.) Look at what she did to poor 'ol me... tempting but depriving me. my poor poor soul...

gimme gimme gimme... yummy veal bone!!!

See, she's sucha bloody loser. I still didn't get it in the end. Bitch.

L: That's because he just had his breakfast. -_-

Update

2006-04-01T03:26:00.000+08:00

In the spirit of recent events... i've decided to share my blog with Max.

Why?

my social life has been completely overtaken by him and i have nothing else to write about.
it's a stressful period for most of us and moaning about it on my blog really won't help me... or you. might as well talk about nice fuzzy stuff.
this blog will bury itself soon if i don't do something!

What this means?

He's gonna do some of the talking ard here. while this might scare off some ppl, it really isn't anything new. I used.. erm i mean i have Piggy, a soft toy who wld engage in long languishing convos with me back in the days b4 Max arrived. yes. don't laugh, we all have needs.

Anyhow it won't start now cos Max has zero materials to begin with and he's a lil illiterate if u can't already tell. but here's a funny thing i'd like to share:

Rules for Non-Pet Owners Who Visit and Like to Complain About Our Pets:

They live here. You don't.
If you don't want hair on your clothes, stay off the furniture. (That's why they call it "fur"niture .)
I like my pets a lot better than I like most people.
To you, it's an animal. To me, he/she is an adopted son/daughter who is short, hairy, walks on all fours, and does not speak clearly.

Remember: Dogs and cats are better than kids because they: eat less, don't ask for money all the time, are easier to train, usually come when called, never drive your car, don't hang out with drug-using friends, don't smoke or drink, don't worry about having to buy the latest fashions, don't wear your clothes, don't need a gazillion dollars for college, and if they get pregnant, you can sell their children. - Author unknown

2006-03-07T17:57:00.000+08:00

I'm too cool for birthdays, esp my own...

anyway thanks to all who celebrated for me or wished me on my 21st.

geez, there's so many to thank. this shall not turn into a dumb list, cos u can't measure ur frens. u know i love you all and if i could, i would grab each and every one of you to hug and kiss... some perhaps more willing than others. HAHA.

i now have a sizeable amount to splurge... real happy about that. but most of it is heading to the manja bonehead who eats, sleeps and poos.

ok im dumbfounded for words.

errhh... keep it going peeps! that was lame. gawd, why am i so lame?! right, it's my bed calling out now. much love...

2006-02-20T02:29:00.000+08:00

why is there so much to do?! farrrrrrk...

oh God, please help me... there is so much work to do and i completely just passed the sem by without processing any itty bit of knowledge. i have like 3 assignments/essays due after term break on top of which 3 books to finish reading but i'd be lucky/happy to even complete 1.
boohoohoo... i've calculated, that means trying to read 70pgs + 1 assignment every 2 days to make it in time. should i even bother borrowing more fucking books to 'support my arguments' and 'provide textual analysis'??!!! noooooo... i think nottttt.... ok i feel like my brain is gonna burst. someone poke it now!

in other news, Max will be going in for his vaccination.... THEN i can bring him out! yippee! ok, he's sometimes quite a stinkin bastard... takes forever to finish his food and he absolutely refuses to step on wet grass. wtf. ok i'm just pissed cos he seems to like my dad more than me. so why am I THE ONE CLEANING HIS POO?!

bleah sry///i'm just wound up as tight as max's tight tight ass! arghhhhh.

2006-01-21T23:27:00.000+08:00

This is Max. Isn't he cute?! He's 3 months old and already a stark raving lunatic on steriods. Had him for about a week and i keep thinking i'm gonna cause his death or something. I'm such a bad owner!!! Sent him to the vet today for his vaccination and found out he has slight fungi on his skin, so he has to wear an E-collar while i administer cream & give him medicated baths. but it has made him oh-so-sad to be restricted thus... Also, moved him from the living to the backroom yesterday and he had the runs... probably from the stress. The doc said he seems fine but left the decision to vaccinate him up to me. oh gawd... i hope he gets well or stays well or whatever and grow up to be like Frankie. oh you tubby lil bugger...

Geisha

2006-01-12T16:39:00.000+08:00

2005-12-31T05:04:00.000+08:00

this is for the better...

enough.

Bangkok

2005-12-18T23:46:00.000+08:00

Ok, Bangkok was fun. Lotsa shopping, eating (mostly incredibly hot stuff) & taking taxi rides. Rather relaxing i'd say. Oh and for the hundredth time... No i do not wanna see pussy (boobies maybe!). Got pretty sleazy at Patpong but it's all part of the business there i guess. I love travelling... i really do. i don't think i can be satisfied with settling down. There's so much more out there you know. If only i dared to do the lonely planet 6 degrees thing. Yup, but great company always counts a lot.

Mucking about & feelin a lil ennui. I hope everyone gets a blessed Christmas filled with happiness, peace, joy & love. Need a bit of that around.

Frankie

2005-12-11T17:42:00.000+08:00

A rather interesting thing happened today. I was on my way to church this morning when i came across a dog in my area. It was straying around marking every possible spot and so with no one in sight, i followed the poor fella. He probably ran off from his home last night because he was all soaked and cheryl said it rained ard 4 am. So after 40 mins of trailing the dog he finally let me stroke him and then i carried him all the way home. For a cool 3 hrs, I HAD a dog... later took him out for a walk hoping to find his family and true enough they were driving ard. It was rather disheartening to have to see him go... but he was so happy to see his owner he actually poo'ed.

Meet Frankie, a real sweetie... didnt bite or bark at all.

Anyhow this is like a sign from God!!! First, i never go to church on sun.. dunno but we just decided to go for dismissal. Second, everyone knows how desperate i am to keep a dog & everytime i walk the route to Dover mrt, i always hope to see a stray dog (i've also come across a cocker spaniel & a golden retriever) at the park. Ok, yes i am taking this as a definite sign. Right now though, my grandma is hopping mad... cos she saw Frankie, thinks i bought a dog and yet she can't seem to find him. Heehee.

2005-12-09T11:49:00.000+08:00

because nick & jessica broke up, i have decided to change my blogskin.
no not really. i'm more bored than anything else. i wanna revamp my wardrobe. i wanna go zouk. i wanna straighten my hair. i want a lot but i have so little. my posts get very ditsy during the hols. i write in acute short direct phrases like this. i shall hit the sack now at 11.58am.

Falalalala

2005-11-26T00:44:00.000+08:00

I can't wait for exams to end!!! Faster. 1 more paper. In the meantime, I've been surfing the net and indulging in rubbish reads. the following pics may be a lil disgusting for some of you but the first pic intoduces the World's Ugliest Dog. No kidding, it existed on earth until it passed away recently. It's actually a Chinese-crested breed with crooked teeth, but much adored by it's owner for over 13 yrs. Man... i called that true love, & i'm not being sarcastic. The 2nd pic is really a lame fashion statement. Super gaymo jeans ripped to reveal one's butt. But that's some ass though!

i'm invariably depressed. over how it's so difficult to convince people. i'm slightly miffed. over how it's leading nowhere & i dun really care anymore. imabitch.
Shall look forward to some R&R after exams and not expect too much from life.

Re-evaluation

2005-11-21T21:08:00.000+08:00

Back from dinner but Jon's tirade of questioning has left me befuddled. i can't do anything till i figure myself out.
And so i finally did.

For the sense of adventure. The unknown is exciting and novel. When everything is stable and life becomes a routine, u expect a jolt of sorts. That feeling comes from a new experience - New friends, a relationship, a new toy, new clothes, new club, a pet, travelling. It all points to the adventurer in all of us. We constantly need 'something more'... a lot of that self-realization comes from consumerism today... but also from changes in our personal and professional lives.

courtship -> wedding -> house -> baby -> growing up of kids

All the above milestones are stimulating. They are traditionally, things people look forward to.
When you're 20, you've not experienced enough. You want to conquer the world. You don't want to settle.
When you're 30, you're jaded and fearful of not feeling fufilled. You look for someone to be a witness that your life is worthy.

i don't believe that marriage and setting up a family is the ultimate path, but it is a road well taken by many who vouch for the ups and downs that come with it... thus providing this sense of security for those who have yet to choose their paths.
Cue: Social Constructs

truth is, i get sick of things fast. my beliefs and mindset is ever-evolving. i don't care for consistency nor do i need to justify my feelings. the more i can't have, the more i want it. but whether i act upon that desire? hmm. To a great extent, I subject myself to society's ideals. how unfortunate! they say be yourself. but no one can really be true to oneself.
What i really want is to be a happy camper and look for fun.

Ambivalence

2005-11-07T02:50:00.000+08:00

There's been bad news recently.
it's like i'm surrounded by pitfalls of wretchedness. i guess we're all helpless, leaving us with even more despair.

i hope i escape my parking offence.
i hope huimin is feeling better. drive safe, people.

And most importantly...
i hope carin gets back nuggertz. :(

exams upon us... i wish all well.

A certain Company is quite the bitch

2005-10-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

recent errors have led to grievances on my part and left me reeling in despair for the weekend. i understand that i am an insensitive, self-centred, big baby who dramatises and over-exaggerates. i find my claims totally justifiable but i guess some lessons in life are meant to be harsh and by now, the money has become a secondary issue. the important thing i learnt was how some people are terribly good beings and this awareness has fortunately made me ashamed of the self-pity that i had previously acquired. i am grateful to those who have offered me aid or comfort in one way or the other and perhaps made me realised how adverse events can often be subverted to become incidents of blessing.

~~the jury is still out on this one, but the verdict doesn't matter anymore.~~(ok it does, but someone has kindly offered me a safety net)

this probably comes across as a rather esoteric piece but it was meant to be evasive anyway.

Eil's 21 Years On Earth

2005-10-10T00:12:00.000+08:00

It's a costume party... wadya expect??? We are sick depraved kinky individuals who just get off on our own HIGH, resulting in beautiful parties like Eileen's 21st... worthy of competing with the mass orgies out there.

*Click on picture to enlarge*

Left to Right

1st Row: Hhog we got for Eil/fuckin'high on karaoke/death & sex/PZ scares me shitless!

2nd Row:the babes/prisoners with their kongs/gothic schgirl & bollywood pornstar/in the mood for love/camwhores b4 dinner

3rd Row:cheryl & justina/everyone/we love to act chio/blowin' out her candles

4th Row:the guys...TM is wtf??/we are daaamn Hot!/fallen angel & mamasan/us again...

5th Row:Popye poops plenty/poking at kim's stuffed boobs/eh... inspector!/we r really nuts/checkout the green silk PJs!

It was much much fun actually. just didn't feel like drinking cos' i was too tired. basically... we all looked smackin' goooood in our costumes, had loads of lesbian sex, used Popye to clean the toilet & Eileen got gang-banged whilest drunk. now u figure what's true. hahahahahahahaha.

Psych 101

2005-10-05T00:23:00.000+08:00

I know i am supposed to study. for the ever useless IT1003 test, or my war lit, or my increasingly pornographic asian american lit... but i chanced upon these photos on my hp & decided to have mindblowing one-on-one with photoshop instead. GAWD I LOVE PHOTOSHOP! someone help me!

Anyway crashed Stats I lecture with the gals last wk... Or rather, fug-ur-brain-up-till-it-dies-a-slow-meaningless-death lecture. i'm sorry, it is suicide-inducing. so baaaad i'd slash my wrist than swallow that crap. it is a one-way ticket to hell.

The gals look like they're really gettin their shit together for the class but i'd bet they could barely process what da lecturer was spittin out, who according to my observation (cos this is afterall Psych!) is completely detached from his students & would probably rather have his boyfriend up his ass. And just because he is such a bitchy Queen, i have kindly christened him one of the gals with a very pretty flower. see i am not that mean.

This is really a tribute to all those suffering shitty classes out there. We are better off than we think. actually, not really. go kill urself then.*waves*

More Gatherings

2005-10-02T15:24:00.000+08:00

And i'm not complaining! After a rather intensely stressful week, it was a luxury to lie back somewhat for a lil R-&-R. In this case, a nice time to catch up with good 'ol friends. Anyhow, the weekend was academically unproductive but socially (& emotionally??) fufilling. Well, i'd let the photos do the talking...

OOO... wasn't it fun?!
Dinner with Cheryl, Samm & Sonia & we even bumped into Rina (who i met up with the next day)!!! We are terrible photowhores. *must stop must stop must stop must stop*
Ah fuck to 'em all who stares! i have to make my digicam worth its mackeroos.

We celebrated Shih's belated burfday at Suntec where everyone was FRIKIN late... Char bos are disgusting! (I have to clarify that i was there at 12.38 pm but had to wait for Kim to do up Shih's prezzie) That aside, it was an acidic atmosphere of bullshit and non-sequitors. DUH! it's US... expect nothing less. i wonder if discrimatory signs "No Pets & Giggly Girls allowed" will start poppin up. hmm.

I have decided to spare Carin. Okok, i'm lazy la...

I'm So Excited!

2005-09-18T04:37:00.000+08:00

Yay! Great weather! Nice to start off the Term Break with a bitty of sun. Tell me i'm a fabulous photographer! Or that we're Hot! *pukepuke*

Anyhow, I was thinking of doing a Giggly Girls uniform of sorts. So BABES, gimme any plain tee of yours so i can spray on "A Giggly Girl" and we can proudly start our own merchandising??? Sorry, I come up with such lame stuff when I feel free & slightly more creative. Yup, Hope everyone enjoys a rawkin' week of hols!!!

i am very happy...

PS: Marissa & Ryan are gonna have sex!!! finally! 2+ yrs in waiting. I'm so excited! I fuckin' love The OC

Great Weekend

2005-09-11T01:44:00.000+08:00

Great Weekend! other than the multiple unread lit books weighing in on me. boo...

Celebrated Xuan's 21st burfday with the Giggly Girls... woohoo! Hope she enjoyed herself... well i thought it was pretty wonderful. damn we should just open our own events management firm with all the parties we keep throwing! Anyhow, it was an affair of bubbles, baubles, baked muffins & babes...

It was quite tough producing these 'lil fellas! Carin, Peizhi & I were seh from all that mixing and oven-love-makin' i'd tell ya. Phew.

Bubbles! I think it really enhances the preeeetiness of the gir... the picture.

And since we couldn't get ALL the Giggly Girls in one shot, I had to resort to Photoshop! hehe. As promised... we finally have a Family Portrait!

Oh and meeting up with TanJie & Candice was extremely fun & bitchy! Lookin' gooood those two. I miss you gals...

ClickforXuan's21stCompleteAlbum

The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most

2005-09-06T00:04:00.000+08:00

This is one time, this is one time
that you can't fake it hard enough to please
everyone or anyone at all, or anyone at all
And the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you've built to flee
the places that you've come to fear the most.
it's the place that you have come to fear the most

-Dashboard Confessional

Misanthrope.
i finally found the word to encompass all that i feel at certain moments in my life. you know how you can suddenly feel so suffocated, sick of everything. you attribute it to the lack of rest, the neverending pile-up of work, the over-socialisation with people etc. THAT feeling. all you want is to hide under your sheets & turn off all forms of communication. you don't even want to think. i sound so self-centered but i've been neglecting Me. you know... just stoning about in your own room by yourself in your distended market tee & cheapy shorts with no distractions not using your brain or your heart or your body for some good solid hours. i miss that. but no man is an island & i should be satiated. anyway i'm sucha contradiction... look at me blogging away. BAH! why do i always have to screw with my mind?!

but still, occasionally, the misanthrope in every single one of us surfaces. and don't say that's not you. bleah.

I Am Not Pretentious

2005-08-24T01:27:00.000+08:00

He fumbles at your Soul
As Players at the Keys
Before they drop full Music on --
He stuns you by degrees --
Prepares your brittle Nature
For the Ethereal Blow
By fainter Hammers -- further heard --
Then nearer -- Then so slow
Your Breath has time to straighten --
Your Brain -- to bubble Cool --
Deals -- One -- imperial -- Thunderbolt --
That scalps your naked Soul --

When Winds take Forests in the Paws --
The Universe -- is still --

*Chuckles* Having recently come across this poem by Dickinson once again, I am obliged to mention being tickled by her overt sexualism. I think this is probably one of my favs. Gosh doesn't that make me somewhat of a pervert?! Who am I kidding, I am a total sicko.

i want i want i want!

2005-08-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

Is this not self-explanatory enough?! sighhh... coochie coo! my life sucks.

Speaking of which, today I met up with my neighbour(yes.) after such eternity & apparently, her boyfriend of 3 yrs just moved into our area... so they see each other all the damn time. I mean, how irritating is that? Imagine being together almost 24/7 cos you're within 3 mins of walking distance. I almost balked at them but then he has 2 awesomely cute schnauzer pups & she has kindly said that I could visit anytime...

But then again, I guess I don't deserve a dog. I'd not be able to care for it completely. Anyone who has a dog either has a maid or a homemaker mom. pffff. Well, it's back to borrowing friends' then.*hint*

"We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow"

Oweek

2005-08-06T12:19:00.000+08:00

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wah... finally ended. cant take it anymore... truly one of the most exhaustive, insane things i've done in a long long time.

i love all the giggly girls: kim, carin, eileen, cheryl, peizhi!!! & the nice new ppl that i never knew existed in arts before.

ok, continued my flu, slept for 15 hrs & now i'm REALLY gonna start unpacking & clearing the room. sheesh!

Summer Vacation 2005

2005-07-26T16:25:00.000+08:00

The trip was indeed a wonderful experience & i'm so grateful to have gotten the chance to see so many different cities. So here are my albums of snaps taken throughout the month... just click on the inset pics to enter that album.

Travelled to Toronto, Ontario 24th June '05 aboard Cathay Pacific. Sat till my butt ached & sleep was sparse.

Stayed at my aunt's place & basically went sight-seeing on our own. The public transport is pretty efficient considering everyone else drives their own car.

They have 5 mths of winter but since it is Summer, the sun sets around 9.30pm. The pizza guy drives a honda civic for delivery.

Pride Toronto is a week of celebrations culminating in the Pride Parade on Sunday. Fortunately, my aunts were game enough to bring us down. Afterall, it's not everyday that we see queerdom at its best.

Not everyone marching is gay. Many are actually family & friends showing their support.

Two weeks after Pride, Canada finalised the legalisation of gay marriage, granting equal legal rights to both spouse just as in heterosexual unions. They also have shows like "My Fabulous Gay Wedding" on network TV.

29th June: Booked a guided tour to the state of Quebec where people identify passionately as French (even though the people of France refuses to acknowledge that.)

Quebec is cleaner than Toronto & has a far smaller population of Asian immigrants. You have to be able to know French before being able to start a living there.

Flew to New York 6th July on a domestic flight. Homeland Security, which is now in-charge of US immigration was a Bitch! Most Muslims would check-in 4-5 hrs before boarding.

This is the view from our hotel room. It was great cos we were at 42nd, near Times Square. Buildings are so close, we could see workers in their posh offices right across each morning.

You can tell a native New Yorker from the rest of the American tourists thronging the city. They dress better, walk tall & fast, & look way hotter.

16th July: Took the train to Oakville & got driven to Niagara Falls by a family friend. The cool & wet climate resulting from the Falls make the region perfect for growing fruits, thus it's been dubbed "the land of milk & honey".

The Falls are shared with the US border but 90% falls into the Canadian side. The shot actually shows the American Falls, one of the three falls.

They have one of the best producers of ice wine, a sweet dessert wine nicknamed "nectar of the Gods". It's really really very good.

Well that's it. My brother & I actually took more than 500 shots but who's gonna bother looking through all that?! For all the fun I had, nothing beats the feeling of home. Even for cynical me, i do appreciate S'pore for all it's good.

NYC

2005-07-12T13:40:00.000+08:00

hi! i cant reply comments becos this com is so fucked up but im reading them all... & missin ya'll.

new york city was Fabulous! i love it love it love it. & then i got sick of all the bustle & giant bodies after 4 days so it was just about time to leave. it's seriously the city that never sleeps & just about every strange person is in that town. again no pictures, but i'll come back & do a whole new entry.

I saw BIG!!! Mr Big!!! from sex & the city! IN THE CITY! I'm gonna hit myself everytime i ask this but "why didn't u run after him?!". Well cos I'M AN IDIOT! Argh. he ran off at a corner so fast with some girls chasing him that i realised it was him AFTER he'd ran a mile off. Still, i must proclaim the man is way skinnier & more youthful than the character he played... shit shit shit!

Other than that, NYC is every other cliche it has come to be synonymous with on the small and large screen i will tell you. oh oh oh, i watched Hairspray on Broadway which was perhaps one of the most amazing productions i've seen in my little life. they have truly the best actors of North America!

So, i'm back in Toronto and Niagara Falls is next. Actually i cant wait to return to Singapore. I have no friends here and am already bored (cos my aunts r such restrictive anal-retentive twits).

Till the next time!

PS: Gay Pride was one of the highlights of Toronto & included lotsa NUDE men & women. The TV program here is also unbeatable with 89 prime channels. Other than that, Toronto is really a snooze.ZZZ.

Greetings From Toronto

2005-07-04T01:04:00.000+08:00

i wanted to post so much, include photos and stuff, but my aunts' computers are a lil backdated and the internet connection is terrible. i can't even go online to msn! sobs.

Anyhow, the trip's been a blast! One week here and i'm really lovin it! Oh mannn, there are so many different types of people in this city - whites, blacks, latinos, and a MASSIVE asian population (i so do not feel special...)!! the weather is pretty good like S'pore but with 28478460958928943 miles/s windchills. i have to say the angmohs here are divided into the OBSCENELY OBESED and the HOT HOT HOT segments. but more of the former than the latter.

I attended GAY PRIDE PARADE!!! omg! the Gays are really ripped while the lesbians are erm... mostly fat and ugly. But still, the amount of support the people give these GLBTs is really awesome... oh and i think the drag queens were the best - all diva and men sock's breasts. i've got lotsa free condoms and lubricants to give out when i come back (if you're into that sorta stuff)! i wish i cld post pics but this com sucks. nvm.

Aiight, off to New York soon. btw, I bought stuff for everyone! Later then!

Store Wars

2005-06-07T23:08:00.000+08:00

OMG. i simply couldn't resist putting this out. Click on the picture to follow a link. It's another hilarious spoof of Star Wars yet again... in the form of veggie!!!

may the farm be with you...

For The Truly Bored

2005-06-07T00:37:00.000+08:00

I have officially stagnated. Anyway here are a few nonsense I have been trying to busy myself with... I hope you never have to stoop to my level but if you must, go ahead:

Too much gastro-porn i tell ya... watching all those foodie shows.

Watching too much Oprah can save your life.

Make your own unique tees like they do at tshirthell.com!

In other even less loins-stirring news, I've been developing my fine art of blending which is basically tweeking pics using photoshop(yes i'm a nerd like that) and have done up some fanart of The O.C. (if you don't know this is my fav show by now, you should go hang yourself). Click here to view.

I've been feeling out of sorts lately... i think it's depression. or my frustration with indifference and monotony. i can't tell.

Smokin' baby!

2005-05-29T08:27:00.000+08:00

ha. i bet you didn't know.

the nicotine in cigs helps to suppress appetite by making the body pump glucose into the bloodstream, replacing the need for sugars we get from food.
smoking helps increase metabolism, burning away fats at a quicker rate.
dragging on cigarettes dispenses with the food-to-mouth action the mind is used to doing.*

coupled with stress and temptation, it's no wonder then that hollywood stars smoke so much. yet many female stars deny the habit because they want to maintain that "healthy image" as "role-models" for teens. WAKE UP TO THE TRUTH! Almost every A-lister babe worth their twenty years on earth smokes. I didn't believe that until...

kirsten : damn i thought you said you hated smoking?!
brit : yeah... give all that tar to baby-fugerline, tramp.
rach : so that's how you lost all that weight! twiggy-wannabe
katie : no wonder you developed mouth sores.
kate : twiggy
lindsay : twiggy
nat : i guess harvard's a bitch eh
mk : you should BURN that outfit (along with yourself pls) with your cig!
mischa : it's all greasy's fault.

Shocked? Upset? Wanna know whether your favourite female celeb smokes(yes she does.)? Go to smokingsides.com

*the health-risks of smoking outweighs(hehe) that of obesity. so kids, don't start.

Life Is Plastic, It's Fantastic

2005-05-19T06:25:00.000+08:00

Check out the Rupaul doll from rupaul.com. He/She is Fabulous!
I changed the tagline though.*sniggers*
Dr 90210 is Baaacccckkk! More surgery scars, uneven boobs, censored bit parts & of course my favourite Dr Robert Ray. Everyone should get E!

The Twiggy

2005-05-15T02:01:00.000+08:00

It has come to my attention that the twiggy is back in fashion! What is it? Here are 5 features of this completely rad trend:

Clavicles that jut out sharp enough to kill
Breastbones that appear more obvious than the breasts
The possible snapping of arms and legs due to bearing of the head's weight
Eyeballs that progressively potrude with each passing day
The lack of ANY curves whatsoever for the dress to hang on to

You and I both know there are more crazy qualities which may be derived but let's stop because we need to eat, which incidentally is the case-in-point that is missing! Young hollywood just scares the shit out of me... No one ever stays the same for long. It's weight up down, skins up down, marriages up down yadda yadda. The likes of Kate Bosworth losing that toned bod from Blue Crush to Terri Hatcher's decreasing mass is not a new thing. After all that celebratory claims of vuluptuousness, the truth is "Everyone wants to be thin". Yes, we all love that impossible model frame, and so do the stars. But something's gotta give when one goes from slim to skinny. I wonder if it's the cokeheads they're becoming, or the glucose diets meant for stroke patients, or truly the "loss of babyfat" but the twiggy is not good... nooo... not when you drop 20 pounds in 3 weeks. But who am I to say anything... these people make millions and if they want to disappear(in such unconventional ways), I should shut up.

lindsay, nicole and their new friend lollie (yes she's more famous than paris!)

You! Kiss moi... & him... & her... & it.

2005-05-01T00:57:00.000+08:00

As Summer hits close, my favourite shows are rounding up their seasons for the vacation too... sad to say, OC, Desperate, Lword, SimpleLife are all wrapping up with cliffhangers & such to leave me with withdrawal syndrome cravings for my TV fix. Sighhh what it means to live a life as a junkie. I guess i'll contend with backdated-runs from local broadcast & E!(thankfully) for the next few months.

Speaking of which, I tuned in to One Tree Hill reluctantly on Thurs & I must proclaim: Chad Michael Murray is fuckin' HOT. I love that crew-cut & piercing eyes... very cK model. I actually was gonna bemoan the fact that there are not enough quality testosterones lighting up prime-time (Adam Brody's character is not exactly alpha-male/Jesse Metcalfe is MIA) while the gals sizzle like hot bagels! This phenomenon will be discussed another time but for now OTH is my saving grace.

And here i have to mention that channel 5 cut the lipsmack between Alex & some chick on The OC even tho the character coolly proclaims "it's just a kiss". Look, if we wanted our boring lives, we wouldn't watch TV. Throw us coke-snortin, bisexual kissin', threesomes, huffy Queers anytime! Urgh. It was seriously no biggy but of course, ooooo we wouldn't want to confuse our teens with two men or two women sucking face cos this would turn our population Gay & birth rates would plunge like the Singapore stock exchange & everyone would get Aids & die. Yeah! For a secular nation, I really wish we could be more progressive. Anyway it's gonna be a loooong season ahead cos sexuality marks itself on OC & OTH thanks to sweeps so who knows what will be left after the cutting board.

Download the video. Down with prudes & censorship!

One Night In Paris

2005-04-28T15:05:00.000+08:00

Apparently i'm gonna fail college. I have a deeply disturbing confession to make - I haven't touched any book or notes at all. 2 papers later, with no substantial knowledge in-store, i'm still not doing myself any favour by idlling around while having a ménage à trois with my TV & computer. Am i bad or am i bad? Anyway with everyone struggling through the exams, i'm sure a source of comfort cum(hehe) motivation has been to plan out for the long break ahead. Yep, bring out that paper and pilot pens to list the things you want to achieve during the vacation (half of which will never be fufilled)!!!

I want to:
get tanner
lose weight
grow taller
stop scratching
get smarter
become less of a bitch
buy a sewing machine
temporarily leave S'pore

See, a lot of the above will not happen but let's keep our twinkies crossed.

By the way did i mention, i love Paris Hilton. TV personality/ model/ singer/ actress/ fashionista/ part-time pornstar... you name it, she's done it. Plus with a cool US$30 million inheritance, it's amazing how she's naughty & nice at the same time. You've heard of Type A personalities... she's like Type C++! The woman is incredibly smart for acting stupid and getting people to buy that! Shrewd. That's why i like her. Of course you can disagree & say she's a slut. But that's ok... i can't say she isn't either.

Fat Is Beyouthefool

2005-04-08T03:36:00.000+08:00

Okay I know this blog is turning into extreme superficial posts but I guess we all need a bit of laughs in such dire times and gimme-2-testtickles-elmos ain't doing the trick. Anyway, why should I care... it's My Perogative.

Britney is fuggin' fat white trash. When you see something like this, you know it's time to let yourselves go! Eat-all-you-can buffets, Chocolate-anything, Smokes, Ciggs... Fatkins Fatkins Fatkins!!!

Edit 14th April: Turns out she is/was pregnant. Congrats, another redneck to add to the world. Ok, my bad.

The Myth of Hollywood

2005-03-20T00:07:00.000+08:00

A most disappointing breakup... Josh Schwartz is an idiot. No one knows what i'm so upset about but you all will, when The OC officially hits us 31st March. PLEASE WATCH IT!!! (it starts out real boring and stupid but the juicy twists come mid-season)

I was havin a convo with a friend recently about people who changed their looks dramatically since pri/sec sch. I'm really into the idea that hair and make-up seriously makes all the difference. It's kinda freaky but it's so true. A good bundle of us really did look like shit back in the good 'ol days... (i'd be the first to admit. ask me for evidence if you dunmind revolting). Hmm... we've definitely come a long way from then, i am glad to say. So many ex-skanks are lookin their finest ever at present. But you'd either pop the champagne or grunt in jealousy depending on whether the person in question is a friend or foe. I can't exactly quite put my finger on this phenomenon though. Is it that being Asians, most of us mature later and therefore discover our more chiselled features post-16 yrs? Or is it just that we're putting greater effort into our hair, dressing etc? Or maybe it's how with life's experiences, we're more confident and exacting in how we carry ourselves? & even for a selected few, it's thanks to the surgeon's knife (yes, a fact about our peers i shockingly learnt from a friend)...

But whatever it is, the million-dollar question... Why don't more guys go through the same thing?! Argh! But praise to the concept of the metrosexual and growing male-beauty industry, hopefully the testosterones could catch up on evolution soon.

The Chinese have a saying "the world has no ugly women, only lazy women". How apt. Here i have Hollywood permeating the truth... watch as 'there's something about mary' progressively becomes hotter with each new episode and then learn the MYTH of it all!

Alex from The O.C. They take 3 hrs just for make-up.

Hair DOES make a difference! Olivia Wilde plays Alex.

Disclaimer: In no way do i mean disrespect towards the actress above. I think she's got amazing talent and looks great, au-natural or not! Just trying to prove a point. Pictures thanks to oliviawilde.org

Team America

2005-03-13T18:38:00.000+08:00

Please tell me you love this guy...lol

Best. Week. Ever.

2005-03-06T22:51:00.000+08:00

I promised myself I wouldn't blog about my daily life but only when I feel inspired or want to jot down some totally irreverent shite.

BUT,

Damn! I love all my friends!!! A big shout out to everyone who made this week so special... Forget crack, forget E, forget ciggs........... These guyals absolutely put me on a high by just being them!

Jo, Huimin, Esther : Thanks for the wonderful dinner & present! Yes, it wasn't the exact one, but I love it no matter. Great hanging out with ya'll. Now keep down the PDA! kiddin'...

Carin, Cheryl, Eileen, Kim, Leanne, Peizhi, Shih, Xuan, Changyi, Minshen, Thiaming: Ahhh....! It was a funtastic night wala-ing! I can't believe you ppl went to all that trouble... & still couldn't keep it a surprise. lol. Nah, I really loved the gifts and the free beer! Sheesh, best birthday EVER! & now i realise i don't have any photos... boohoohoo. You ppl ROCK.

Cheryl & 'family': hhahaha... I can't believe it, now I'll have to give up abstinence! Watch-virgin no more... but I love you guys soooo much! Thanks for everything babe! Happy Belated!

And to all who messaged or wished me, thanks man... such pleasant surprises.

Aiight, I really enjoyed myself & I just wanna throw my arms around every friend! Woohoo!

Champagne Supernova

2005-02-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall

Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova

A champagne supernova in the sky

Wake up the dawn and ask her why

A dreamer dreams, she never dies

Wipe that tear away now from your eye

Slowly walking down the hall

Faster than a cannonball

Where were you while we were getting high?

Champagne Supernova - Oasis

A song about nothing and everything. I feel like I'm in a spin. Throw me some crack now... I'll take it, OD and die. I HATE school. bleah...

Boohoohoo

2005-02-23T20:08:00.000+08:00

Sadly i didn't win the $10 million Toto draw...

Of Shots & Fashion

2005-02-17T15:55:00.000+08:00

I have to admit, I've been feeling rather inspired in recent times... no thanks (or thanks??) to my obsession with The OC. "Oh fuck, not another superficial lame fan off on a quest to justify her incessant need for THAT show again!" You must think.

Superficial? Oh yes definitely. some more pls. Lame? I think not... ermm then again, nevermind.

Anyway.

As I went on my weekly drug of online piracy (naughty-naughty!!) and LCD screen ogling, I couldn't help but wonder how those leading ladies could pull of such amazing fashion and why we don't!! Granted, NO ONE remotely looks like Mischa Barton. And we can't afford the high-end tags they shamelessly flaunt. But if you think closely, we can take a cue from Californian dressing. They have year-round sun like us and wear layers out. We have year-round humidity and wear layers in(read: -17 airconditioning). In all their eclectic variety of couture, I absoltutely adore what the character Summer wears! Now if only I win the Toto draw and become my own millionaire trust-fund baby! I'll definitely make a run for all their clothes...

But back to my inspiration. No, the above wasn't it you twit!(although I did run out to buy a Toto ticket) Surfing the net on The OC & anything related, I found out the husband of the new actress joining the cast in Season 2 has a website where he shamelessly flaunts(it's a Hollywood thing) his pictures. But dammit, they're good! So, my inner-photographer has been revived and I bring you some of my favourite photos. Some of you may find yourselves in them *Gasp!* "What travesty!" oh relaxxxxxx... a huge time was spent digitalizing the photos so it's all good. Just click under the checkout section.

Peeg

2005-02-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

Dolliza

2005-01-28T17:07:00.000+08:00

Instead of ploughing through The Human Venture, I found this really inane website where one could manipulate features to create a virtual doll. After 2 hours of careful nitpicking, I made Me! I know that's the point but isn't it kind of creepy that it actually holds some resemblance?? Ok, I'm not half as Hot as 2D manga bitch but wyduncha' fan this narcissistic dream... Everyone should go try it! Some time-wasting fun never hurts.

i wish i dress better

Ennui

2005-01-21T19:15:00.000+08:00

Every now & then, I let depression creep up on me. Well maybe not depression, just a sense of melancholy, weariness or dissatisfaction. Anyway it's hard to pin down, but I feel weirded-out such that everything pulls at me but nothing attracts me. It's the anti-social syndrome where I recede into my cubby hole to question my existence. Not that I like finding depth in the abyss of what is life... but we really do need to take time out to re-evaluate things, go through the fucking feelings & then claim ownership of it - it being your emotions. Yet I feel like crap. There's nothing to even eat at. I am an empty shell. Before I lapse into a state of self-pity/loathing etc, I will simply say that man can't ever live in peace. We must have our extremes! Being indifferent is such an uncomfortable situation. Perhaps it's the bi-polar acting up again.

I am enjoying HBO productions which are so good uncensored. They're dusted with humour, belying the the raw & honest issues packed inside. Six Feet Under. Two-thumbs up!

One of the most haunting songs I've heard in a while... I Will Love You. You will need to have realplayer to watch this get it here.

Bitches

2005-01-11T09:00:00.000+08:00

Oh Goodness Me! What a way to start my term! ~~SC2101 is one terribly disgusting module! The lecturer lost me on the first slide after which i proceeded to start an ancient chatroom (paper & pen) with my friend.~~ Elang was relatively alright, but what scared me was that most of the students seemed like they were 2nd/3rd yrs! I should now kill myself.

But anyway on to something other than a rundown of my pathetic life...

I watched a special on E! recently about the top 20 Primetime Bitches (yes i love trash!) & it really tickled me as B-grade personalities commented on these oh-so-wicked-witches in Hollywood. But here's what I think:

Power-hungry, status-conscious, over-sexed, ruthless, manipulative, wicked. Often summed up as EVIL-epitomised... they are your true-blue BITCHES! These women are all the prescribed adjectives and MORE. Men fear them while women scorn them. But who's to escape? Whether on-screen or in real-time, they exist.

You look at this drop-dead georgeous girl as she totes about air-kissing and complementing & then comes right around to stab a knife in someone's back. You're only glad it's not yours... well, not yet at least.

I guess women are just bitches because they like to express themselves. What's wrong with a girl wanting something and going for it?! Even if it means stepping on a few toes sometimes. Seriously, to them, everyone else can just drop-dead.

It is said that 9 times out of 10, wicked women are hot... just so they can get away with almost anything. They're usually the women girls wished they could carry off as but didn't dare (or couldn't). Their specialities include bedding men (mostly other gal's boyfriends) and then twisting the dumbos around their little fingers, claw-scratching full girl-on-girl catfights, feigning innocence with Bambi doe-eyed looks when exposed, and all the while still remaining unbelievably fabulous. Gotta love those damn bitches! Now at this point, if you're not dead, you'd become a bitch too.

But why be a Bitch? No one likes you & it's taxing having to constantly think up big-ass plans to piss people off. How about this: Sometimes you look at the nice sweet girl everybody loves and you just want to give her hell. & who's to say she ain't a Bitch too?? Deep down in everyone, there's one waiting to get out. Yes, Men too can be wicked. And don't deny that! *wink*

Sobs

2005-01-07T19:04:00.000+08:00

Cry yourself to sleep every night.

for all the things that went wrong. for all that didn't happen.

"Against cruelty toward humans."

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what fucking tutorial slots.

Superficiality

2004-12-26T17:43:00.000+08:00

On the topic of why i am so superficial...

Everyone likes to be seen in the company of Hot People. regardless whether they be male or female. I understand I just made a sweeping statement. Yet if you introspected, you will find yourself in the trappings mentioned at one point or another. There is a certain fondness for fellow beings who appear pleasant, attractive or well-heeled. Now, it is obvious only 0.00026 of the population actually have the genes of Gisele (of which, two-thirds probably had help from Plastic & refuse to admit) so technically, there isn't many to pass around. In this land of scarcity, beauty is even more highly regarded. How sad you must think, that we judge or are judged based on appearance. Whatever happened to personality, character, morals etc.?? No. Those are important factors. But the predisposition to looks will always be there. Oh duh. But wait, there's more...

The behaviour and attitude of a person can make or break his/her looks. The truth is facial features only carry one thus far. But that swagger, the dressing, the nonchalence at which you greet... all add to the the package. Apparently Men smoke because it is a display of endangering their lives, therefore a way to impress Women. It works on the same mentality as other species like how the peacock spreads its tail to attract peahens even while knowing it could attract predators too. Fatal attraction as they call it has been in our system since we were chimps I'd bet. With the change in status, more women now smoke too (yes possibly as a leverage in the high-stakes coupling game, but with not quite similar repurcussions hmm).

Somehow though, Hot people rarely make good company. They're usually too caught up with themselves & assume they're always being checked out (I hate them! Oh no, I take that back, gimme Hot anytime... yummy). Right. The truth is we'll never give up clamouring and glamorising the good-lookers. And now with increasing acceptance (even encouragement) of cosmetic surgery, the loser-in-the-streets can be the Next Sexy Thing. *ting!*So maybe if everyone starts to look Hot & it becomes the norm (probably in approx. 15 yrs time when skin grafts are as good as skin gifts), then Fugly may be the new Hot! What rubbish.

This isn't working out. I think I need more compelling souls in my life.

2004-12-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

A night which threatened to erupt into a Bitch-Slap Fest(with a particular FAT GIRL no less) was excellently saved through nonsensical mambo grooves executed by that capped cutie on the podium. With Cheryl, Juls & that dick YX(who wasn't half an arse for once), Zouk was really much fun! It should be known tho that I was this close to wringing a neck or two for I seriously don't appreciate the elbowing and assing by SLUTS. & this was me with only A Corona in my system. Yours truly may be small but she Packs a Mean Punch.

We took forever to leave

Leanne's delayed-for-so-long-cobwebs-are-forming-belated-birthday was FINALLY acomplished in a nice dinner this evening. Thereafter she brought us to a great place at Clark Quay for 1/2 priced Margaritas!! Happy-Me. Anything on a discount keeps the calculative me High. But the most hilarious thing was that a group of Guys tried to pick Kim & Leanne up on the streets! Even with the 'sudden boyfriends' & 'lesbian-admittance', they were persistent. Was most afraid Changyi would flee, cos I would have ran with him. Hee. Kim, how could you reject Specky?! No doubt he was puffin' away & spouting hokkien with his pals, but maybe it could have worked?? Not quite the 3-rm Condo dwelling with 1.42 kids that I forsee but HEY, they crossed the road to try again at least. Now THAT's determination eh...

That's Us

shite! 1/2 price margaritas!

see how RED josh got

Fuck it

2004-12-13T15:30:00.000+08:00

WARNING: SELF-ABSORBED ME

Things I've Learnt:

Never go clubbing when it's raining.

I look pathetically small in a Mercedes. & every other vehicle for that matter.

I like being isolated. I forgot about the 3 friends within me i've been neglecting.

I hate people. We're all false pretentious superficial creatures who can't really help ourselves. I don't want to play any more games.

I lurve feeling depressed.

I am sick. That's on both levels.

Fuck it.

2004-12-07T07:40:00.000+08:00

Fun Fun Fun & more Fun! Seems the blues have drifted away... wait a min. I realise I have at least 4 more wks to do absolutely nothing constructive. This is made worse by the fact that the family won't be having any Christmas celebrations this yr! boohoohoo. I think I'll get down to the baking, sewing, cleaning & reading I'd promised myself then.

Zoukout was a BLAST! Taken during PVD's set.

I lurve ya'll my fellow Beasts!

haha. great gossip, at the expense of ...

Shisha & middle-eastern food. Great way to kickstart 'em hols!

More pictures through the photos link.

Oprah

2004-12-02T10:33:00.000+08:00

If you were a 30 yr old woman in Mexico, you'll most likely NOT exercise or diet because the men loves their women with curves...
If you were a 30 yr old woman in Paris, you'll probably not be overweight, but you have a 1 in 3 chance of being a smoker. National obesity rates at 20% compared to 60% in the US.
If you were a 30 yr old woman in Kuwait, you'll be colleged-educated, enjoy 2 hr lunches and shopping sprees regularly but you have zero voting rights.
If you were a 30 yr old woman in Cuba, you'll probably have been divorced 3 times, had 4 abortions and earning as much as the waitress or doctor living in your neighbourhood. Getting a divorce is cheap and abortions are paid for by this communist state.
If you were a 30 yr old woman in Rwanda, you probably wouldn't exist. The genocide raged on the Tutsi minority by the Hutu militia left nearly a million dead a decade ago. Henriette speaks about how she witnessed the murder of her family of 16 & was repeatedly raped until her assailants were too exhausted, at which point she escaped.

I can't even fathom the injustice and disparity of the world. Yet we all have to contend with this variety no matter what. Hmm.

The Oprah Winfrey Show. It's absolutely homemaker-fanfare with the awwwws and megawatt smiles and buckets of tears thrown in. Smorgashboard of primetime drama involving real-life issues, riveting facts and case studies of individuals in shits. I'm lovin' it!

Ok, I'm not happy & I dunno why. Argh!

I'm Really Quite Free!

2004-11-28T08:36:00.000+08:00

Oh yes yes yes. I decided to change to Blogger because Diaryland is giving me a lot of problems and it's missing a lot of 'friendly-features'. Say, Blogger allows instant photo display! & yummy-liciously-coloured text & it has way more free templates on the WWW. Oh Goodie!

Here We Go... Again

2004-11-21T18:26:00.000+08:00

The advent of examinations has left me in a period of isolation, not so much 'lonliness' as 'being alone' though. It seems fitting then for the onslaught of reminiscence to hit me in moments of the dark edgy nights. Personally, I find myself associating memories with sounds and smells which then lead to the visual. They are somehow more affective triggers of the past. When I do run into ocular instances, I day-dream about the future more than what is history. But I digress.
My recent purchase of L'oreal Plenitude Hydrafresh reminded me of my JC1 days with every whiff I took in. I recall the daily applications before school & the scent that followed around for the period of assembly and chapel. And then I switched brands.
This then made me think of the scent I associate with post O levels/1st 3 months. Forgotten days crammed in the pink liquid of a Bodyshop bodyspray which I believe Huimin still holds a little of. Ahhh... It is somewhat refreshing I'd say.
And as I sit here with Jay Chou burning the player, I'm transported to the good 'ol days of JJC, where we were carefree spirits with little responsibility and consequences. The tracks of his Fantasy album will always imbue me with a sense of nostalgia - sitting at the 'gambling den' grandstand blissfully unaware(or in denial?) of the crossroads we were heading toward.
Each time I hear Gui Ji(yes Jay again), I'm back in Bali. Squeezed in the Van far too small for 8. The breathtaking canvas of purplish-orange sunsets. Lounging on the deck chairs of Grand Hyatt beset with darkness and the wonderous breeze of the sea, feeling a mix of sand and salt on our skin.
Yes, recollections of tranquility, overwhelm, bittersweet events & the people you just can't seem to erase. Years down the road, I wonder what associations I will make with the PRESENT... because these too, are good days but all-to-soon-to-be memories. Whatever you're smelling, hearing, feeling, tasting now... what do you see?
Well that's quite a bit of melancholy. Heave-ho!